I hate these nights, it is now 1:18 am ( So I guess its technically morning) and I’m wide awake! I had the most eventful day and I should be hitting my pillow in a coma like state but my brain is rattled with thoughts. When I get like this, I end up staying up all night just re-organizing shelves; I take everything out and put everything back in with a new method of organization (which is quite similar and just as boring as the original method). Like crazy right? I’m aware that this might not make sense to some, and might seem like a colossal waste of time but for me it’s a form of therapy!
Earth, life, human beings, live in an entropic state, this simply means IN A MESS. Some things we can control, other things not so much, and most of the time we get knocked out a few times because we think we can control those things we cannot control. That’s the problem with a developed frontal lobe, an ego is developed that bewilders some into thinking they are above this inevitable entropy. Some can go with the flow, understand it, embrace it and move on. Some develop coping strategies, while others simply lose foot. Either way, it’s tough because there are moments in life when it’s all so over-whelming. To this I offer remedy: find people, find friends, fall in love with someone who will support you through it all, Hold your hand or make you laugh. It’s the most important lesson to learn... you can choose the people you hang out with. This is something controllable, and who you surround yourself with has a direct effect on your happiness. I have been blessed with the bestest friends in the world J It took me a while to find them, and I’m grateful. FRIENDS and loved ones make entropy easy and even, at times, fun!!! J Thus this night of insomnia although triggered by an awful day, is being lived through with a new perspective and in full knowing that I am not alone, and have support all around. Besides my kitty cat Jasper is the best company lol:P he keeps nudging me to organize the heaps of books scattered on my floor: I sit in the middle thinking that my obsessive alphabetising needs to be shaken up... also the segregation between literature and popular fiction: I dare myself to get messy and amalgamate the two in a new order! J :O
First step towards my goal of squatting in a bush to relieve myself!
Cest La Vie people
Make wishes, spin around and be messy (I am a phony because I am a neat freak :O) lol
Xoxo
Twistedbelle
