yes rational me sucks at grammer look at this as a free write lol! with no editing just typing lol

And when im sad, I should take a step back

Dear Sophia

Its  you writing, I just wanted to check in and see how things are going! I can only imagine how you have been since the last time I checked in.  You have been doing very well,  things were looking up for you. You lost the weight,  you met a boy and you fell in love.  It’s your final year of university and you are back on track with what you want to do.  This is all positive shmositive.  Then why are you so sad chickadee. I think I know why, first of all since life has kind of sucked for you,  you know you tend to create anxiety where there should be none.  Just because your past sucked,  doesn’t mean your future has to silly poop head. Also,  you tend you self-deprecate yourself when things seem to easy or too good,  you create this battle in your head and no one can ever really win.  STOP STOP STOP!! It’s enough!! What did we promise ourselves Sophia, what did we say we would never do again??? GO ON YASMIN! There are other pills out there loser!!! It made you crazy last time and it won’t changed just because you are on concerta now.  This deep depression is not because you are broken again, it’s just because you are takings something that messes with your hormones’.  You know this on some level because I know it!! Silly irrational me,  sometimes I wonder about you and how you get to where you go inside our mind.  How do you even come u with some of the things you think, and how come you can’t let them go.  I guess that question should be placed on moi! Well love stop looking at life in such a drastic way, things will work out! Whether it be today tomorrow in a few years you will have it all and more.  AND WTF DUDE??? You worked your freaking ass off only to make the same mistakes again!! NUH the hell not! Chocolate is not as good as skinny feels! Put down the freaking junk food and get your freaking ass to the gym!!! NO MORE BAD MOUTHING ME PLEASE! I am a good person, with a bright future I don’t need your shitty down talk and freaking irrational eating to bring all of my accomplishments down. NO THANK YOU!!!   Really? Really? Really? I better be singing opera in the shower tonight, and hitting the treadmill hard sometime soon! OH and please get your ass to Starbucks for a SKINNY cinema dulce latte you know the Christmas cup makes you giddy on the inside.  OH and take a trip to t dot and sit in the bay display for Christmas! You know that shit is like crack for you!! SOPHIA its Christmas and you are in love, and this year you have someone to kiss on new years.  WTH! That answers are right there why the hell are you being such a freaking child! Grow up! And look at everything you have done and pat me  on the back retard!!  You are the only thing that has held us back,  so you have to help me, help you! Together in sync we will take over the world. 

AS to that insecure voice you have of no one loving you! Well if anything I do, I love you even when You feel like im gone, im there in spirit with self-esteem and confidence waiting for you to wake up and realize all the things you have! You are blessed and people love you so stop! So take it and say it like barney, Ima stop being sad and just be awesome instead, SOPHIA ME I MYSELF< LETS BE AWESOME

Sincerely your

 Rational Side

P.S. IM freaking offended that you turn me off so often honestly! Im soo much smarter than you for real times lol xoxoxoxoxox